Laying here after the State of the Union address listening to Dennis Miller, with a little snack before bed and looking through a newly purchased marine fish guide book. My favorites, if I could ever choose, are the invertebrates. Beside me are some newly purchased books among other things, and this article I've forgotten to read too many times now. It is titled 'Entheogens and Existential Intelligence', it isnt long at all (about half the pages in the file folder are notes and references (but I love to read those as well)). Things are fabulous! I am really beginning to.... I dont know what the word is, or if a word exists, I am just in this continuous feeling of happiness. I am happy in this moment. Dreams are more real every night. Did I mention the invertebrate section begins in page 111 of the new book?(That number!) Sleep is coming crazily easier and now being unable to sleep is replaced with healthy sleep and vivid dreams. Also, I've been waking up during the night a lot and at remarkably convenient times. Coincidence?;) Synchronicities are and have been undeniably heavy on my end. When waking up during the night there is this feeling that is just too fucking weird! Some nights sleep is so plentiful I even fall back asleep! (This may sound trivial but it is a war won with sleeplessness for me!) I am not tired any longer; not tired of the body or mind. I feel like the water I drink, yeah those are the words to describe now. I hope as you read this you can feel the positive energy radiating from me. Social networking sites are less visited, thus my mind is less cluttered with different tangents of experience. Sounds silly but needed in these times. For sometime before this awesome sleep got a hold of me I would not be able to sleep due to this weird as fuck feeling that Facebook was making its way into my dreams; like my mind now had this dimension of a kind of virtual reality filled with souls living parallel lives. I dont know but that freaked me out and thats where I drew the line! With that being said, sites were not deleted; there is good in the connection of like minds. But balance is required for personal growth which in my experience best comes with a degree of seclusion.;) I really enjoy this blog. Ive always put thoughts on paper, its a kind of technique to gauge growth and re-tie my self to past selves. Does that make sence? I hope so. To publish them was a choice I've come to love, it brings a feeling of openess that has helped me alot. Even now I sit here looking through previous posts lauging at my crazy half assed wishes to travel! In my moment I am so happy to never see an inch outside my immediate space; that is see 'infinity in a grain of sand'. William Blake is always so appropriate isn't he?;) I share now something from the Tao: 'And even though the next country is so close that people can hear its roosters crowing and its dogs barking, They are content to die of old age without having gone to see it.' And from that book 'The Glorious Presence' that keeps finding its way here, and may be cause for my current state: 'Sitting here, in delightful acceptance of this situation, in happy companionship to this portion of Nature, and even for the time being forgetting that there are other portions of Nature outside this garden, I am being made aware that it is a unity-it is the source of my delight-which, when I think of others, I know to be the same kind of unity which some other persons in some other gardens may be enjoying at this moment, in some other parts of the total unity which reflects itself into all gardens, all parts. My garden-it is mine sometimes, is it not?-is my window into the infinite; my delight has for its core my resting in that infinite.' I guess this post is just one of those posts with no central idea, just thoughts while I reminisce and listen to talk radio. By now Dennis Miller is long gone and George Noory's lovely voice fills the room.
Just another day in the Life.;)
