Sitting, eating a bagel with cream cheese, watching 'Hail! Hail! Rock and Roll'. Things are horrible. I don't know what happened, things were looking great and now everything is lost. Yet the moment I say that is the moment it becomes ridiculous. I can feel that this is the way its supposed to be right now, I don't know why. Obstacles have just been plentiful, almost as if to make me realize not to take a certain path, does that make sense? I was supposed to go back to school tomorrow and here I am today knowing I cant. Looks like I'm going to miss the first quarter, at least. I wonder why. Why am I feeling sad over missing school? I did not even want to go back really, but I kind of did. I saw it as a way to get back on track. Now what? Shit! I thought everything would come together with me going back to school. After sobbing like a baby, it looks like its back to reading, painting and more reading. Wait, isn't that the life? To worry is to doubt the universe, a lesson learned time and time again;).