Maybe its just the shaky times in life or maybe reflections that make your past self unrecognizable to you. Sometimes theres a feeling of being reborn; born again. Ive been in that situation, maybe I am still in it but, some moments I cannot help but to think 'WOW! look at me now, who would of thought!?' Maybe its the new year bringing in these thoughts and reflections but I remember having even a favorite color (sounds trivial but its not, to me) There was always some filter, something through which you defined yourself and looking back, it limited my field of view. Maybe thats what aging is all about, maybe its just expanding your field of view? I swear it feels so much like a dream, sometimes memory and dream blend indistinguishable from one another. I think that the way I gage my growth is by the times I realize that I no longer have the balls to do what Ive done;) ha! Everyone goes through these crazy times though, sometimes I think I was asleep for a good while until waking up not too long ago. But wouldn't you want to just "sleep" for a while sometimes, blank without filters and awake with gained perspective to view the larger picture? Maybe not in the sense that a lot of people are 'asleep with the need to 'wake up' but in simpler terms, be it at night or some nights. (for my fellow insomniacs;)) Which explains why memory relative to time passed is very dream-like, dreams themselves(when distinguishable;)), the need to age(and collect the previously mentioned memory), and most of all sleep. Because it offers many chances to wake up....to the now;)

In light of the new year, and because of my failure to capture any fireworks, I share this with you all: The top of a huge 'firework tree' we burn each year in my home town in honor of our towns patron saint.